Today’s neurology appointment

Today I saw Dr. K for my neurology appointment to find out why I am still having so much pain and if there was anything that he could do.

Wow. That has got to be one of the worst doctor visits I have ever been to! First of all, the door to my room was open. He walks up, breezily looks in at us (my husband and I), continues his conversation with someone unseen off down the hall. Then, he calls me by the wrong name, Beverly, shrugs when I correct him, stating “it must have been my other patient.” Uh … okay? I then tell him my case. He is unimpressed to say the least. He literally stares at me and is like, “what do you want me to do?”

Not vacantly stare at me!

I must have asked him in three different ways if he could think of some reason for my pain. He kept saying, “it’s a pickle the situation you are in.” No kidding! I live that “pickle” every day!

He was just so unhelpful. So completely uninterested in coming up with an answer. He didn’t even try! I have never been so disappointed. It was insulting how little he cared to come up with an answer.

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Random Ramblings: 1st time sick with low back pain

Well, it finally happened. I got sick.

I had throw-up previously, except I did not have the low back pain yet.

So it was sort of random. I woke up at 4:00a.m. on Monday night and was not feeling very well. I thought to myself, hmmm, I should go get a puke bowl just in case. Well, I only had to exit my room before it came on so fast. I ran to the bathroom and the first heave hit. Nothing came out, but it was clear I would not be able to puke standing over the sink. So I hurried to the kitchen to get a bowl. I had another heave with the bowl, and that did not work either. I hurriedly squatted down and finally threw-up in the bowl.

Wow. Did it really hurt my back. It tensed every muscle in my back when I tried to throw-up in the bathroom sink. From top to bottom too. It wasn’t just in the lower back. I was surprised though that the crouch position was better, as it is very difficult for me to get in that position in general. I think a lot of it had more to do with the arch of my back more than anything else.

Today, Wednesday, I have to say the left side of my back is doing much better. It’s only been a day and a half, maybe two depending on how you look at it.  The right side, as always, is pretty shot. Although, most of my stretches went fairly well. I haven’t gone for a walk outside though, sadly, because it has been raining here in San Francisco. It’s sunny right now, so as soon as I finish this blog, I’ll head on out and assess how the walking is going.


However, in some ways, I’m glad I got the first illness out of the way. It’s been on my mind, and I have been fighting it for so long. It’s almost a relief to have it out of the way.