Settling into new place almost complete

It’s now been three weeks since I’ve moved in order to facilitate healing, and to not be trapped in my own apartment.

So far it’s been going fairly well.

As of last week, the carpet was proving to be very difficult for me and my back. I spoke to the apartment complex, and they refused to do anything about it. Well, that is until my husband went ape-shit on them. Now they are all ready to do something about it.

Well, it’s too late. We were able to find a solution ourselves that is working out so far quite well. I’m able to stand at my computer without too much difficulty now, so that is good. No more hanging out in the kitchen!

I still find myself going outside a lot, as it is easier on my back to be on solid ground. I love the San Mateo weather here. Even though I daydreamed that simply moving would make me suddenly better, I’m still quite pleased with the ability to enjoy nice weather. I go outside and talk on my phone for a few minutes to friends, or instead of reading something indoors, I’m able to stand outside and enjoy the sun. It helps the mood a lot to see the sun. Maybe it doesn’t help my back get any better, but I do enjoy a better mood.

I do find it humorous that I like to stand near the pool. All of the people who are there are always giving me funny looks, as if to say, why are you standing and not sitting? Cause I can’t! But it’s nice to be near the water, and to hear the kids laughing. I can stand for a few minutes, and it makes me happy.

Madeline Fresco is a novelist who lives in San Francisco. She is the author of CROSSED THE LINE, available for Kindle at Amazon.com, for Nook at Barnes & Noble, and as an ePub at other eBook retailers. You can also listen to her novel as a free, serialized audiobook at madelinefresco.com. Her second book THE CHOICE, is available on Kindle at Amazon. Her third book ANGUISH, is available for Kindle at Amazon.com

Settling in is an adjustment

Settling in has been quite trying. First of all, there were so many things that I had not considered.

First. The toilet was too short here. It’s like a baby toilet. I literally could not sit on it. It was so close to the ground that I couldn’t reach it. I had to research toilets online and find one that was ADA compliant. Then I had to schedule a plumber to install it after getting permission from the landlord. Thank God they allowed it. Now, it is so much easier. However, I never, ever would have thought that that would be the case.

Other thing. My apartment complex says that it allows Direct TV. That’s bullshit. As soon as my guy came to install it, he said he noticed no one else here had one, which aroused his suspicions. Sure enough, not actually allowed here. Total crap. What can I do now? I’m so disabled I can’t go to a bar to watch my games. Oh, wait, let me take a step back. I don’t care about anything else other than football season in a few months. How am I supposed to watch my Green Bay games? I’m not well enough to go to a bar. I can’t walk there, I can’t drive there. Plus, I live in San Mateo, where is there even a sports bar that will show Green Bay games here? Plus, I like to hear the sound. Too often when you go to the bar you can’t hear the sound, only the sound of the home team, and let me tell you, I DO NOT want to hear Niners’ games.

I have settled upon Hulu Plus for now. It serves all of my needs. I really only like watching Colbert Report and, don’t laugh, General Hospital. I have a Netflix account so I can watch movies, and I can start season two of House of Cards and then move onto OITNB. I hear that is very good. I’m also kinda interested in watching Fargo now that it is done and it got good reviews.

But I digress.

One of the other hardest things was the internet. First, they cancelled my internet in SF three days early, right in the middle and beginning of the move. Then, I make them promise me they will turn it on here, which, doesn’t happen. It was a big disaster that I don’t even want to go into, but I was without internet for a week. Yes. During a move, I had no internet. No good way to look stuff up. No way to check emails. No nothing. Remember the toilet thing? Try looking up what kind of toilet you want on your iPhone. It’s a pain. I also blew through my data plan on my phone, and you try telling your 4 year old niece you can’t FaceTime with her because I’m out of data on my phone. Not gonna happen.

The other hugest issue is that this place is carpeted and the floors are completely uneven and, in fact, rotted through. Yup. All this place did was throw new carpet onto rotten floors that are also completely uneven. It completely hurts my back. I was not anticipating not being able to stand on cushy carpet. There is a lot of padding down to try and cover the holes. There are huge holes in the floor, and there are divots, and slants, and slopes everywhere. Right now I have several calls into corporate to have them fix it. I pay $2100 a month. I don’t need my floors to be so shitty. It’s lazy. I literally had one guy tell me when I told him he needs to rip up the carpet to figure out why my floor is so slanted and has holes in it, he said “well what do you want me to do if we find them? Who’s gonna pay for it?”

Really? That’s his answer. Disgusting. This isn’t the 1880’s and I don’t live in a tenement building. I live in San Mateo, part of Silicon Valley and the suburbs of San Francisco. Get it together.

Now I spend all my time in the kitchen because the floor is fake wood in here. Although, this too is slanted because my weight scale goes nutty on the floor in here because it is so uneven.

 

Madeline Fresco is a novelist who lives in San Francisco. She is the author of CROSSED THE LINE, available for Kindle at Amazon.com, for Nook at Barnes & Noble, and as an ePub at other eBook retailers. You can also listen to her novel as a free, serialized audiobook at madelinefresco.com. Her second book THE CHOICE, is available on Kindle at Amazon. Her third book ANGUISH, is available for Kindle at Amazon.com

Today’s neurology appointment

Today I saw Dr. K for my neurology appointment to find out why I am still having so much pain and if there was anything that he could do.

Wow. That has got to be one of the worst doctor visits I have ever been to! First of all, the door to my room was open. He walks up, breezily looks in at us (my husband and I), continues his conversation with someone unseen off down the hall. Then, he calls me by the wrong name, Beverly, shrugs when I correct him, stating “it must have been my other patient.” Uh … okay? I then tell him my case. He is unimpressed to say the least. He literally stares at me and is like, “what do you want me to do?”

Not vacantly stare at me!

I must have asked him in three different ways if he could think of some reason for my pain. He kept saying, “it’s a pickle the situation you are in.” No kidding! I live that “pickle” every day!

He was just so unhelpful. So completely uninterested in coming up with an answer. He didn’t even try! I have never been so disappointed. It was insulting how little he cared to come up with an answer.

Madeline Fresco is a novelist who lives in San Francisco. She is the author of CROSSED THE LINE, available for Kindle at Amazon.com, for Nook at Barnes & Noble, and as an ePub at other eBook retailers. You can also listen to her novel as a free, serialized audiobook at madelinefresco.com. Her second book THE CHOICE, is available on Kindle at Amazon. Her third book ANGUISH, is available for Kindle at Amazon.com

Random Ramblings: Move is complete

So, at the last minute, I decided to move. I couldn’t stay in San Francisco anymore. There were a lot of reasons. The main one, was that I couldn’t leave the house. I have been trapped in that apartment for more than two years. I couldn’t go down the stairs and I couldn’t use the elevator because of the big heavy gate.

There was a lot of talk about moving to San Diego, but I just didn’t think I could manage the drive – in any fashion. What I ended up having to do was order an ambulance service to drive me to San Mateo.  It was humiliating. I don’t like to be so disabled that I would have to use an ambulance service. I cried a little bit on the drive. Although, I did keep thinking to myself it would be worth it in the end because I would have more freedom. More sun. More flat surfaces to walk on and try and improve my duration/endurance.

I have mixed feelings about the move. I’m not super pumped that my illness caused me to have to leave the area that I love. I have lived in San Francisco for ten years. I loved my job. With the move, it makes me feels like I had to admit to myself that I just wasn’t getting better and that I’m not going to be well enough in the foreseeable future in order to condone living in a place I can’t leave unless someone lets me out.

I really wish things were different. So, so very much. Hopefully this change of scenery will improve my health. Maybe there was something in the air in San Francisco. Maybe there was something to inhaling all of that exhaust soot all the time. Who knows. I really, really hope I get better.

 

Madeline Fresco is a novelist who lives in San Francisco. She is the author of CROSSED THE LINE, available for Kindle at Amazon.com, for Nook at Barnes & Noble, and as an ePub at other eBook retailers. You can also listen to her novel as a free, serialized audiobook at madelinefresco.com. Her second book THE CHOICE, is available on Kindle at Amazon. Her third book ANGUISH, is available for Kindle at Amazon.com